Oh my gosh... what to do now... Mi Ny--Mi Nam's sleeping in between the three guys. What happened last night was actually... Aaah! I don't want to remember it. It's gross and I can't even imagine it happened.

I'm peeking at the A.N.JELL sleeping in the living room together. Mi Nam, wake up now... I really don't know what to do... I saw it all before my eyes. And there's really more to throwing up in Hwang Tae-kyung's... This is disgusting. But... what I saw while stared at you falling off the bench and who took care of you was actually... No. Kang Shin-woo doesn't know anything and you'll never get busted with our little secret. But the way he looked at you was so strange. I should stop dreaming too anyway.

Before I even wake Mi Nam by myself, she ran all the way out.

Could she have figured it all out?

I leaned on the wall thinking these all through. *Sigh* When I peeped again, Jeremy wasn't there anymore! Where could he go.... Will he scold at Mi Nam? Wow, I'm getting used to calling Mi Nyu as Mi Nam. Or will he feel sorry for Mi Nam about last night? Wow, I'm really getting used to it.

I leaned back against the wall again. This is disappointing... I lasted a day pretending to be Mi Nam's sister. Shin-woo even mentioned we do not resemble in looks. Because I think I'm totally different from Mi Nyu, both in the way of thinking and mannerisms. Oh, crap. I just called her Mi Nyu. MI NAM. Stamp it hard in your head, Sung Hyo.

I sighed. This is gonna take a while. I looked down, and I suddenly remembered on thing. I lost my bag the night when I was at a bar that's why Dad got me busted.

I suddenly saw Kang Shin-woo standing right in front of me. I was stunned that he actually still looks good even in the morning. This is when someone should greet me 'good morning'. My eyes grew bigger, I know. I'm in a state of shock because I was having a deep sigh or what I call sentimental-moments-with-your-thoughts-and-you.

"Kang Shin-woo?" I gulped.

"Is there something you'd want to tell me?" He asked me and I was like, 'I'd like to tell you you're so handsome...' and freak out and run! Haha. Lol, I won't.

"Huh? Is there something I should tell you?" I ask like a puppy being so shy. I can't even look straight into his eyes so I just looked away.

"Because you look so familiar to me... I wonder where I've seen you before..." He brushed his chin thinking.

"Are you... talking about when I was accidentally bumped by A.N.JELL's van? That's when we've first met." I explained.

"Aah, that's when I had to carry you..."

"I told you to put me down that time." I argued.

"Aah, yeah. I remember now. And you were too heavy."

"Huh? No I'm not!"

"Weh? I think I'm even lighter than you are."

"HUH???" I looked down at my body like a child. I am not even an inch fat. Just kidding, but swear I am skinny.

"Just kidding." He laughed as if he never laughed before. Oh, how adorable. ^_^

"You're so mean.." I joked.

"You looked cute anyway, looking down at your body... Hahaha!"

"HMP! I'll just look for my sister." I turned around to start looking for Mi Nyu. Oh CRAP.

"Huh?" He was like... putting a big question mark before my eyes. CRAP. CRAP. CRAP!

I looked at him. "Just kidding." I smiled like a puppy again. Like how a chow chow would do when his master caress his hair. I continued walking away. Howley Mowley.

How can I put into my head that Mi Nam's my sister... Mi Nam's my sister... Mi Nam's my sister now I exclaimed MI NAM'S MY SISTER. Oh, geez. MI NAM'S MY BROTHER, NOT SISTER. Lock it in your head, Sung Hyo. Disregard her or... his gender this time.

"Mi Nam?" I asked when Mi Nam entered the house, she was in the balcony, or porch, or I don't know where she had been.

"Sung Hyo," she sighed. "I still need to apologize, I'll talk to you later." She said in a pleading voice. She must be talking about Tae-Kyung. Poor Mi Nyu... Tsk.

"Wait," I called her. "I'll be out today, maybe I can look for jobs so I can get enough money to sustain my own living. So that one day, I'll have my own room, okay?"

"Huh? You don't need to do that, Sung Hyo..."

"It's okay, just to repay you, Mi Nam."

She did not speak anymore, I went outside and took my Canon EOS 500D which I got as graduation gift from my parents... Now I remembered again my parents.

I stayed at the porch for awhile sitting on a chair there stared holding my DSLR. Confusing how I should live my life alone some day...

I stood up and took shots of the sky. All flashbacks came up in my head... Yeon Hee, Mom, Dad... Everyone that brings tears in my eyes. When I stopped taking photos of the sky. I wiped the tears in my eyes.

"Wow." Someone said from behind. It was Jeremy.

"Jeremy?"

"Just taking pictures make you cry?" He asked while holding his orange fruit.

"Not really," I finally smiled. "I'll go now." I walked past him.

I went to different shops, but they said my degree doesn't fit those kinds of job. Because I graduated medtech, now I'm applying in each store I can see. Funny it's easier to accept rejection when I know I didn't even want those jobs in the first place.

I stopped by a coffee shop and took my laptop. Well yes, as a student, I had a laptop. Because remember my parents are too willing for me to be a doctor, so they gave me everything I needed when I was in college.

I transferred the photos from my camera. I uploaded it on my tumblr and put the best descriptions I can write that interprets best the picture. As a writer I know from myself, I always do this.

It's even funny that I have these 999 followers. Haha, my soulmate would be my 1000th follower.

"What's pain? It's when you see everything's okay. But you don't feel the same. When in every breath you take, your hope is going to fade. That when you try to hold on longer, it keeps on getting harder. Break down, get up. Cry your heart out, but be sure to wipe your tears away.

Sure it may be painful right now, and it feels like what you had before will always be in your heart no matter what. It's hard to forgive, but it's harder to forget. Don't wait till the time comes that you can't even forgive yourself anymore.

Look at the sky... sure it seems grayish at times, but the sun's just maybe tired of shining too. That sometimes, you'll need to search for the light within.

Be good today, folks!

signed with ♥, S.S.H."

Publish.

WOW. Such a good writer. I clicked 'follow' the time I finished reading her recent post. There are really those unnoticeable people who are actually capable of touching each of her reader's heart. I swear this S.S.H. is really a good writer. Now I ended up reading her recent posts.

These photos she took are all great. There are really talented people, but I swear she's one of a kind.

Suddenly, Min Hyuk came and tapped me from behind.

"C'mon, we need to practice for our show tonight." Then he grabbed his drum sticks on the table. And he glanced on what I'm reading, "What now? Enjoying the net?" He smiled again and his eyes disappeared and funny how his eyes smile too.

"okay, okay. Let's go." I shut my laptop down and followed Min Hyuk.

Min Hyuk (left) and Jong Hyun (right).

Ooh? 1000 followers? Who could my 1000th follower be?