"Manager Ma, you think I should go down there and apologize to those fans?" Mi Nam asked her manager as we were looking at the mad fans of A.N.JELL against Mi Nam.

"You think so?" Manager Ma threw his jacket and shouted, 'It's Go Mi Nam's!' and the girls down there started tearing the jacket into pieces. "You don't want it to be that way, right?"

"I should stop disguising Mi Nam... this is harder than I thought it should be. I should stop pretending to be Mi Nam." Mi Nam sighed and frowned.

"Disguising and pretending were never synonyms, Mi Nam. They never had the same meanings." I looked straight seeing the tall buildings before my eyes. "When you disguise, it means you're covering up for someone. Not bad at all. But when you pretend, you're making people believe on who you are not. So," I looked at Mi Nam. "Are you pretending or disguising?"

The thing about her and Hwang TaeKyung isn't just a joke. It's something that needs to be seriously fixed before everything gets harder for all the members of A.N.JELL. She is disguising Mi Nam, that's for the good of her brother, even for their dreams to see their mother, so I don't think there's anything wrong when you just need to cover up for someone who might actually be really in need more than how you're blood-related.

Pretending, for me, is acting as if everything's happening the best way things can be. Pretending is accepting the fact that hurts you the most. Pretending is feeling against your own feelings. Pretending is fighting what you really feel because you thought that that's what's best. Again, you just thought of it. Not thoroughly considering other possibilities. Pretending is being who you're not because you're protecting something or someone you think is more essential than your own good.

"I'll be seeing you later, Mi Nam. I'll continue looking for a job, okay? You can do it, AJA!" I cheered her up before I left.

"What do you mean job?" Her manager asked in out of the blue.

I was shocked with his question. "Huh?"

Mi Nam interrupted. "He meant it as... uh, take care. Yah, take care on your way." She hand signaled an 'okay' sign. "Manager Ma, Sung Hyo's not used to talking about her personal life. Just let her go." I heard her whisper to Manager Ma which really made me grin a big one.

"Yeh, I meant it as 'take care' and good luck!" Manager Ma said AJA. Well, that's my favorite line anyway.

I waved good bye and headed to find a job again.

As the sun sets, I didn't find any job at all. Am I really ready to work? Nothing but writing is my passion.

I stopped by the porch when I reached the A.N.JELL's house. I don't know why but I really don't feel so welcome here... Maybe I should really get a job as soon as possible, as soon as tomorrow.

I took my camera and took some shots of the sun setting. It will be dark again later and that's what I hate about every day of my life. Life without the sky is a misery. As I was focusing on the sun shining as it sets, somebody blocked the light the sun shines. I zoomed it out a little to be sure I wasn't dreaming, the blurry focused and was clear now. I was shocked by who it was that's why I accidentally hit the shutter. My jaw dropped when I figured it all out I'm not dreaming.

"My picture costs a hundred thousand won." Kang Shin Woo mocked me.

"I'm sorry, I was just surprised? Yeh, I was surprised to see you." I looked down, trying to avoid his angelically created eyes.

He walked closer to me. My heart acted so weird, I felt my heartbeat. That is totally weird. Who feel their heart beating without even touching your chest to feel it? Kindly raise your hand! I'd be raising both of my hands!

"It's really weird too," he started out looking straight into my eyes. I gulped. "because I'm really, really sure I've seen you before, even before our van accidentally hit you..." He was kind of inspecting my posture, height and eyes.

"What are you looking at?"

"I'm just thinking when and where and how..." Okaaaay. I don't know what he's talking about.

"I... I need to go inside, and finish my work." I grabbed my laptop, honestly, I was supposed to work with my laptop here at the porch.

"What work?" Why is he asking too many questions?

"Well, I... I don't have work... yet. What I meant was... I'm working with the pictures I've taken today. I'll just see you around." I rushed into the house like a kid trying to runaway from her playmate.

Now I was weird.

As I was uploading pictures... I stared in his picture I mistakenly took. He's so adorable... Is there any word greater than adorable? I could use it right now to describe him... Wake up, Sung Hyo! No, yes you can't like him! I meant, NO I CAN'T LIKE SOMEONE LIKE HIM! I was just surprised to see him before my camera. Yeah, that's just it.

Breathe in... Take it out... Inhale... Exhale.

What's that? I heard someone dragging... Is that Mi Nam? Oh, no. What's happening?

I rushed out of the room I'm sharing with Mi Nam, and left my laptop open. When I reached the living room, Jeremy, Shin Woo, Manager Ma, and another guy... Maybe their manager, as in A.N.JELL's manager or something?

"TaeKyung, what are you doing?" The man asked.

"Get him out of this house." TaeKyung pointed Mi Nam who's standing beside him.

"Yah, hwang Tae Kyung, do you really want to add fuel to the fire?"

"Then I will go." He puts down his right arm.

"Ah, hyung, why do you have to move?" Jeremy asked who's standing beside Shin Woo near the sofa.

"Hwang Tae Kyung. Don't behave that way." The man said, and Tae Kyung walked out.

"Those two didn't get along well in the first place." Shin Woo said... I admire calmness in his voice. "When there are lots of misunderstandings, let's give them both some more time."

Mi Nam went outside, maybe she's trying to follow or stop Tae Kyung from leaving. I hate this part, we'll get busted or should we leave now?

"Those kids, they truly can't control themselves." Manager Ma said with crossed arms.

My knees were shaking, surely Mi Nam will be hurt. I know her from body and soul, she's too kind to be down like this.

Manager Ma went out, I wanted to follow but my feet felt so fixed and glued to the ground.

"You okay?" Jeremy asked me. I blinked my eyes a little more, looked at him and smiled.

"Yah, I'm fine." I finally had the courage to follow Manager Ma.

As they were talking, I knelt before them.

"Su..Sung Hyo?" Mi Nam was surprised.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry you'd have to undergo this things." I said. And truly am.

"You don't need to be like this, besides, I'm gonna be fine, right, Manager Ma?" She said with a lively voice.

"But this is too hard for you, I know how you feel just right now." I looked up to them.

"Sung Hyo, when you differentiated disguising and pretending, it would be just hurt coming all the way if I'm pretending. So, Sung Hyo... Thank you for you've enlighten my eyes, I'm disguising. Not pretending."

"Plus, I'm sorry I have to be added to your problems. I found so many jobs, but I chose none at all..." I looked down.

"Why? You don't like them all?"

"I'll try to find something that fits me better. I will try my best so I won't add up to your problems. Besides, if I have a job, I can finally leave and stop doing this. It won't take too long, I promise."

"Oh, yah. You like writing, you graduated medtech... How on earth can you find a job... Don't worry, you'll soon find one. And you can stay with me as long as you need."

"Thank you, Mi Nam. Anyway, I'm practicing so hard to call you that way." I kind of whispered. Mi Nam stood up and embrace me. "Just tell me if you need some help, okay?" I whispered in her ears. "We're sisters, right?"

I went back to our room and found my laptop still open with Shin Woo's accidentally taken photo. I rushed to close the window, somebody might see it! AH! I'm so stupid.

I put my earpones on and listened to Love Light of CN Blue. YouTube can be so useful most of the time.

[please disregard Yong Hwa (Shin Woo) on the video, please? haha. It will be as if he's not there, only the three members.

I took my pen and sat down, I took my diary and started writing.

I closed my diary and put it down... I think I want some coffee, I'm just gonna buy and go out in a bit.

As I was about to close the window of YouTube, wait... Why am I really stupid? AM I JUST SLEEPY, TIRED OR REALLY MADLY CRAZY?

CN Blue's vocalist... Oh, no... Come on. Is he the same person as I've met when I fainted? Is he the same person I've bumped into when I was in the A.N.JELL's company? Lee Jong Hyun? It's really crazy now that I don't know how to feel.

I put down the laptop, what I've seen can't be true. Oh, if not for YouTube... I wouldn't have known it at all!

Coffee. I need some coffee.

I've watched Sung Hyo writing down something in a notebook with her earphones plugged in her laptop as a video was playing. She looked adorable somehow. I was peeking as her door was slightly open.

I hid behind the wall when she went out of her room. Oh, I am so not me with what I am gonna do.

I sneaked inside her room shared with Mi Nam. There, nothing's so special. I saw the notebook she was writing into on her table.

"Read a word, and I'll kill you." That's written in the first page. She's really weird and funny at the same time. Girl things boys can't understand.

She's really into writing? Dear Diary... blah blah blah... I scanned the pages, not too interesting. Too many pages, she's just wasting papers. I got into the last page where she'd written earlier.

I'm here because I'm suspecting she's hiding something as much as Mi Nam's hiding something I already know... How can someone leave her diary lying where any one can just take it?

"A lot happened today. I finally understood even more what's disguising and pretending. Mi Nyu's disguising Mi Nam. And I am pretending to be his sister. I thought they were only words, just words. But when Mi Nam said that she's just disguising and not pretending, it struck me that my words can actually struck someone like her, my best friend."

I guess I'm just right. How... on earth... This is driving me insane.